Recently a colleague joined our group at work which meets every Friday to get drunk and high. She seemed super into me, and fuck me, i was also into her.
We had like super awesome conversations and idk, it just felt awesome to be with her.
But then, one of the guys in our group - he has everything i want - awesome looks, super fit, owns a car, confident in conversations - he's a super nice dude but i cant help but be jealous of him.
She sees him one time, and that was it. No more talking with me or anything. She just went straight to him - like there was this magnetic attraction.
And i just realised this has happened repeatedly to me for the past 7 or so years. Girls i like always find someone better, almost immediately.
Fuck my life. Fuck my shitty genetics. I hope I finally get the guts to kill myself soon. This is becoming unbearable.